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May 17, 2005
That's Really The Biggest Problem Right Now
Session Start (ME:SHE): Tue May 17 11:02:17 2005
[11:02] SHE: hey there
[11:02] ME: hey
[11:02] SHE: so C. saw you sleeping in the meeting this AM
[11:03] SHE: that’s really the biggest problem right now - the sleeping/sleepiness/tardiness
[11:03] SHE: anything we can do to fix that?
[11:04] SHE: i feel like if you didn’t look so tired all the time (and looked more engaged) they wouldn’t be nitpicking on the other stuff
[11:10] ME: just to clarify slightly, I didn’t do any sleeping in the meeting, but yes, I was struggling. i’m sick. I’ve been trying to deal with it since I started here.
[11:11] SHE: yeah, I know - I know it’s not a lack of respect, but that’s the way that it’s being perceived
[11:11] SHE: have you been to a doctor?
[11:11] SHE: tried taken anything to help you sleep at night?
[11:12] SHE: (perceived by others, not by me)
[11:12] ME: i do feel bad for the way it’s been received. I went home yesterday with my goulash and went right to bed
[11:12] ME: and honestly, a feel super bad that you recommeded me for the job
[11:12] ME: and I’ve let you down
[11:13] ME: i know i could do well at this job under other circumstances
[11:13] ME: now i’m wondering if i need to just leave now
[11:13] SHE: no! I want you to stay - I want this to work out
[11:14] SHE: if you go to the dr. today, (ie, left to get medical attention) do you think it might help?
[11:14] SHE: i know it can work out if you get better
[11:15] SHE: I wouldn’t have recommended you if I weren’t confident in your abilities
[11:15] ME: that’s how I feel about it, but it’s taking more time than I thought.
[11:16] ME: in the meantime it’s hard to work when I go to smoke and C. I hear saying to Other C. how horrible i am
[11:17] ME: which is only to say that it’s awkward
[11:18] SHE: yeah, I’m sorry - he’s frustrated… honestly, you are one of the highest paid individuals here - you negotiated real high (the partners sacrifice a lot for the employees)
[11:18] SHE: so there’s resentment about the sleepiness - lack of energy
[11:19] SHE: partners make a LOT less than you… so understand that they expect a lot from you
[11:19] ME: i understand.
[11:20] SHE: and at the most basic level they expect you to be engaged… so the falling asleep thing is problematic from a perception point of view
[11:20] SHE: are there any pharmaceutical products that the dr. might be able to recommend to give you a little more get up and go?
[11:21] ME: no, the issue is bigger than that.
[11:22] SHE: would a leave of absence make sense? go take care of your health and come back when you’re feeling better?
[11:22] ME: that might make sense
[11:23] SHE: because I know this isn’t you - you’re not yourself
[11:24] ME: i actually really appreciate hearing that.
[11:24] SHE: and if working here is making you more sick (or dragging out the sick)… then I think you should think about taking some time to get healthy - that is totally a viable option
[11:26] ME: ok. I’m not sure what i should do.
[11:26] SHE: okay, I have to run to a rider meeting
[11:26] SHE: but think about it - we can talk more later - but if you think that given time, you’ll get healthy, then we should explore that
[11:27] ME: ok. thanks for being cool about it. i really do feel bad about not living up to your expectations
[11:27] SHE: I’m not sure what’s wrong - only a dr. can really help some up w/the solution I suppose
[11:27] SHE: seriously - my pleasure - I’m here to be the D. cheerleader, supporter
[11:28] SHE: don’t feel bad - just get better!!
[11:28] ME: you’re sweet. i’ll work on it.
[11:28] SHE: thankee
Session Close (SHE): Tue May 17 11:29:10 2005
Posted by peligrito at May 17, 2005 8:39 PM