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May 16, 2005
Crack-free Dom
12 hours mas o menos into the crackfree (but not carefree) lifestyle
1st night in a long time I haven’t copped
and it’s not yet full of rewards and good feelings
finished a couple of beers this morning around 6:30 and fell asleep for an hour before my phone sounded. god the dizziness, the impossibility of movement. Almost fell from the shower onto the toilet before a last second ballarina’s righting.
fell asleep on the train passing my stop to times square, jumped on the southbound train—noting that the platform said “manhattan, brooklyn” mind you—and ended up on an express to queens, goddammit. was an hour late by the time I walked into work. sounds like a stupid cracked out thing to do, but you don’t mistake seeing the sign like that. must have been a re-routing. what luck! what timing!
hardly had I settled into my project management when i got invited to “go for a walk” with two of the partners at the office. busted. right there in beautiful madison square park—my favorite park in new york, on a gloriously sunny day—i’m told “nobody’s been impressed with your performance” and put on 1-month probation. next time, they told me, it would be termination.
nice way to start off the up and up. the new life. on probation. and with hurt feelings…they said lots of things but who says “nobody’s been impressed” under the guise of professional civility? hey, crackheads have feelings too, you know. even crackheads get the blues…
i have some issues to discuss here about this transition. certain roles and utilizations…
but i’m tired…really really tired…
Posted by peligrito at May 16, 2005 8:42 PM